Tuesday, February 11, 2014

Imitation Moon, Imitation Night by Brian T. Hodges (Random Title #12)

The sun was a pregnant orb that never left its nest in the sky. In its thirst, it reached with a long tongue to lap every drop from the fractured soils below. So, too, did it drink greedily from our flesh, leaving behind a worn and cracked tract. I know you remember. You had grown so ashamed of the map around your eyes that you turned your face from the light—from me. You refused my kiss, hiding your pale cracked lips behind a hand. You said that the sun wanted to turn you into the desert floor. I knew then that you had stopped fighting. I resolved to bring you the night—if only for a moment—to chase the afterimages from your head.

We shuttered the windows of my house and stuffed your headscarves under the door. The darkness was complete, and we lost ourselves. Unobserved, unobservable. You kissed me. But it was desperate—an apology. Or was it relief? I couldn’t tell. Your mouth tasted of sand, of dust. You were eroding.

Our respite didn’t last long. We could feel sun bearing down on the house, forcing its way through the walls. Its presence filled the room like a dark mirror, distorting and aggrandizing that which couldn’t be seen. Your hand returned to your face. I heard your breath quicken—a grating rasp.

“The night isn’t black,” you said after a while. You were always confident when stating facts, but you were not so sure of what went unspoken. “And there are stars. So, there is some light … but just a bit.”

“Yes,” I answered.

We pulled open the shutters and painted the windows blue, then black, then blue again until we happened upon a shade of indigo that satisfied you. It was unwise, we knew, toiling away while the sun pressed against the glass, and we sweated.  But when I looked at your hands, I saw that they were stained the color of night sky. I felt nothing but the moment, nothing but the need to bring the night to you. To stop your erosion. So, we continued. We pricked star holes in the darkened plane. A cosmos appeared before our eyes.

    We lay side by side, regarding our starry field. Patterns emerged and we named them: the Arroyo, the Rose, the Fountain. Our hands met, but the touch was slow and hesitant. Our hands drifted apart. Stars alone don’t make night. I could feel your stony tension return.

    Then you said, “Remember the moon,” and swept an open hand across our cosmos.

    “Of course,” I said and scrambled to the kitchen. I returned with a pot lid tied to a broom handle. You laughed at first, but later you flashed a brief smile when I marched the disk across the night sky. It was dark; a shadow drifting over the sky. And I thought I heard you sigh, a sound like sand blowing over stone.

    “Wait,” I said and grabbed a flashlight. “Aim it at the lid.”

    The moon glowed copper as it arced over our cosmos. You relaxed. I propped the make shift moon in our night sky, just touching the cluster that made up the base of the Fountain. You leaned into me. Your hair shone in the dim light as it fell across your face and your eyes narrowed. You kissed me again—your mouth was warm and your tongue soft as velvet. You pressed your body against mine, and stroked my face. You reached out to occlude the moon. I saw another cosmos appear as dust motes danced around your hand. But you saw something else: “I’m turning to sand,” you said, nodding at the luminous grains escaping your hand, “I’m wearing away.” You sat bolt upright and gestured at our moon, our night, “They’re not real.”

You left.

I watched you walk toward that place where scorched sky met burnt earth—you were a roiling veil, ephemeral, then broke apart. Still, the door hung open. Light trespassed on my moon and stars, echoing your last words. 


Brian T. Hodges is a lawyer, non-fiction writer, and musician/recording artist toiling away the Pacific Northwest. After an absence spanning decades, he recently returned to his first love: writing stories of the fantastic and strange. This story is his first piece of publicly available fiction. His works of non-fiction are widely published in scholarly journals, but they are comparatively rather dull.  


Mari Mitchell said...


Kim Switzer said...

Gorgeous and heart rending and absolutely stunning. What a wonderful piece.

Brian Hodges said...

Thank you both!